There’s a saying, “Home is where the heart is.”
And that’s certainly true of our relationship with God. But our hearts keep wanting to leave home and go to a far country–usually because life has hurt us and God didn’t “do anything” to prevent it.
We often find ourselves in spiritual exile with hearts full of pain. Running away from the sorrow not only didn’t help us emotionally, but it actually bound our hearts to the negative feeling.
Or we find ourselves in a boxing ring, slugging it out with God and fighting with other sufferers. And, even if we feel like we’ve won the fight, our hearts are still full of unresolved, sleeping, negative emotions and the fight’s damage ever lingers.
The key is to lead our hearts home, leading them back into the land of affection and intimacy with our suffering Savior who understands all and loves us in spite of ourselves.
We begin by acknowledging our pain.
This is where we embrace, at an emotional level, that we are powerless to resolve our negative feelings. Others won’t do what we want them to do. Losses have occurred that cannot be undone. Our old normal will never return and there’s really nothing we can do about it.
All these are painful admissions. And all these are statements of brokenness–where we not only have a broken heart but are broken of our proud attempts to manage life on our own apart from God. We cannot fix our broken heart. We cannot heal our wounded soul. We cannot undo painful circumstances.
We bring all our unresolved pain to Christ, and wait on Him.
So we bring our heavy sack of emotional burdens to Him who alone can bear all burdens, and wait in His presence as powerless ones in sheer vulnerability. We resist every temptation to assert our wills, tell Him what to do, give Him orders, and take control.
Then We Receive Grace in Our Powerlessness and Brokenness
Eventually, as David puts it, He turns and is gracious to us. He binds up our wounds, and comforts us in Himself and we realize, once more, we are the beloved of the father. We go through rather than around the pain, and find deepest grace on the other side.
There’s a bit of a mystery here of how long we wait and what, exactly, this grace will look like for each of us.
One person’s grace is never quite the same as another’s, and all comparisons about who gets what and when at God’s bounteous table need to also be surrendered. There’s more than enough for all, and yet everyone receives personalized grace.
The key point is Christ is waiting with outstretched arms, gazing into the distance, eager for our return. Shall we deny Him the joy of our homecoming? Or shall we remain forever on strike and on the picket line of unresolved pain demanding justice on our own terms?
He’s whispering this song to all our hearts:
Come home, come home.
The fire is dancing, the kettle is whistlin’
Come home, come on home.
We’ll make merry your return, and your tears will be dried by our love.