It’s the “morning after” a rather loud, raucous time of celebration yesterday. My final Sunday at SVCC went so well–the kind words, generous tributes, and many hugs made me feel very much like a rich man. I’m so glad I stayed and saw through the tough times all the way to the other side of pain.
Yeah, I’m groggy today. And, yeah, there have been twinges of sorrow as I reflect on all the grace, all the freely expressed love, all the close relationships with the many dear folks we will be leaving. I find myself repeating to myself, “No love, no pain”. I find myself choosing to be grateful for all the years we did have here, not for all the years we won’t have.
We certainly had a time yesterday. Things got off to a right start when a friend lent me a cowboy hat to wear because I was playing the bass for…the country music worship team. I’ve never seen God’s people so into the music and so free. It literally was a party at church. It was a joy to end my sermons there with a message on Romans 8–how nothing can separate us from God’s love. Only the Lord could scheduled such a perfect passage to end a ministry with.
Another thought I had was how the Lord changed the script. Until now, the script always seemed to have a bad ending for previous pastors. So to have a good ending–to leave for the right reasons at the right time, to leave God’s people in unified, growing state, was priceless. No one is robbing them of me. They are sharing me with another church that needs the same grace they’ve enjoyed. God’s kingdom is expanding, and they’re an active part of it.
Speaking of scripts, I wonder if that’s not God’s agenda of all of us. We have this part we play over and over and over again–the addicted loser, the lazy complainer, the battered woman, the neglected child, the lonely wallflower, the pompous fool. We keep making the same choices and take up the same role, and expect different results.
Then Christ intervenes, disrupts our silly games, and takes us back to the very place where we were first handed our old script and doomed to repetition. It hurts, and we are frightened at losing our part in the familiar play we ‘ve lived. But if we take the chance, stick with it, and let Him do soul surgery, we eventually live a different part and are following a new script–His script–for our lives.
And we discover that, under His sway, we become our truest selves and are never more ourselves than when we are completely His. His Lordship, instead of being a prison, is absolute freedom to be what we were always meant to be and to live the life we were created to live. Slavery is being our own master, doing what we want over and over until it bores, defines, and destroys us. There is no worse tyrant than King Me, His majesty the Baby.
And that kind of “morning after” is horrible. So many are robotically, mechanically engaging in perverse, self-destructive, immoral behaviors all the while knowing it’s a grind, a fraud, and a dead end. They only way out of the Matrix is to lie on the gurney, admit powerlessness, and let Jesus perform a heart transplant operation on our sin dead souls. And that’s the “morning after” that’s worth selling all we have and buying into.
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